Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Inner Thoughts part 2

I've had some time to think about the gobbledygook that came spilling out of my mind the other day. So, why don't I like pondering and analyzing world events and complicated issues? Because it isn't black and white and most truthful information is pretty much unobtainable. I am analytical. But, only when it comes to things that have definite answers, no matter how hard it may be to get to that answer. Pattern recognition questions on IQ tests...love it. The state of the American government...hate trying to wrap my mind around it. Apparently, my brain was not wired to think through those types of things, unless I have direct control over the information being analyzed and the ability to ask multiple questions and get direct, truthful answers. With the issues going on in this country and the world today, there is no way I could ever research it enough to have enough information upon which to base some sort of decision or form the basis of some convincing argument.

And another thing...I hate analyzing literature. I have known this for a while, but always thought that I was just a young teenager who only cared about being a teenager. No. That is not the case. I still hate it and I still am no good at it. What's the right thing to do in an ethically questionable situation? ...got it. Why is there a 5th act in A Midsummer Night's Dream when the main story was finished after the 4th act? ...have no idea and really don't care! Don't get me wrong. I loved the play, which I had to read for an essay that is now one day late for a class called The Art of Drama. I can't wait to rent the movie version so I can see how someone else interpreted it as opposed to what I saw in my head. But I am not a mind reader and seem to have no ability to get into someone else's head and analyze what they meant by so-and-so and what significance it has to so-and-so. I do not like reading between the lines in any area of life. And at this age and status in life, it literally has absolutely no bearing on anything that I am doing or will do. Perhaps on a more superficial level it may come up in some conversation down the road with some important people, and it will have been great for me to know what they are talking about. But, how important are those types of things, really??? Not really important in my book...yet, social norms and expectations demand it at times.

Sigh...right, so, moral of the post: I'm really not fit to analyze things that I don't have nearly the whole story about. I can really only judge and evaluate myself, my thoughts, my actions, my interactions, and live my life accordingly.

1 comment:

Ph said...

I told you I would have done that for you. There's a fifth act because the whole story really isn't completed. What seems like the main plot isn't necessarily the WHOLE plot.

Remember, it's a comedy, and it's a comedy from one of the greatest playwrights of all time: Everything must be tied off. (please ignore Christopher Sly in Taming of the Shrew when I say this).